BELL JAR

Chapters 19 and 20 dealt with Esther's stages of freedom. She looses her virginity, which she feels is her way of maturing and having control of her life. She also looses her friend,but now no longer has to live her life under the shadow of Joan. Joan is who she envies because she is showing progresses in her health and mind set; Esther feels she is failing in life because she is trying to match or be better than Joan.